Kattylicious

Name Numerology

2007-05-19T09:16:00.000+08:00

You entered: Kathlyn Torres Del Castillo

There are 24 letters in your name. Those 24 letters total to 100. There are 7 vowels and 17 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 1

The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.

The expression or destiny for #1: A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.
Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.

The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.

Your Soul Urge number is: 6
A Soul Urge number of 6 means: With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you are able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.

The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.
If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 4
An Inner Dream number of 4 means: You dream of being a very solid citizen that people can depend upon. You strive for organization and predictable order. You want to be recognized as a person with a plan and the discipline to make that plan work like clockwork.

- from www.paulsadowski.com

This Says It All

2007-03-27T18:03:00.000+08:00

Closing Cycle by Paolo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end.

If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?

You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

My VisualDNA

2007-03-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

In case you might be wondering, I'm still alive. I've been not-so-much in touch with the blogging world for quite awhile. And in case you're still bothered by my previous posts, better not be. I don't exactly know why i posted them, anyway. Haha. Gotta do lots of updating with this humble cyber abode of mine. But not now. Still got loads of stuff to do, with acads stuff and job hunting taking the bulk. This is my last week in college. I'm nearly done. Hurray for the end of my acad life! Tears for the end of my UP life. Sadness. May we all find a good career a month from now and may we all learn to love the stuff we'll do after our so-called college life is over.

Found this while browsing Zel's blog and she was right, this is one of the very few sensible online exams worth taking. It fits me almost perfectly. Love it!

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

You can't help who you love. -Zel

But you can always control your actions. -Kat

Mahirap 'pag may mindset ka na. -Norman

Buddha na 'ko after this night. -Paul

I marvel at how a simple Jollibee merienda at 4:00 in the afternoon could go to as far as having a no-holds-barred Relationships101 session 'til 9:00 in the evening. This is one of the things I'll miss after I graduate. Tears.

Just A Little Too late

2007-02-28T18:00:00.000+08:00

When a lie is repeated too many times, it often ends up convincing everyone else; but it never convinces yourself.

Two months ago, Glecy, my ever-rational friend, told me that most people are better left alone. 'Cos maybe when they are alone, they think. And when they think, they usually realize what is already infront of them.

Have I thought well enough to realize what was infront of me? Or will it just turn out to be another sad ending?

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you,

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

All That Was Is Again

2007-02-13T23:34:00.000+08:00

How Can I Not Love You

Cannot touch, cannot hold, cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss, cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walk away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot dream, cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, must not say
What we know all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walk away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you

Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we no longer long

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walk away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you
When you are gone

In Spirit of Pakikiuso

2006-12-19T20:10:00.000+08:00

Hindi Ako Swerte

2006-11-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

...sa crs at prerog-ing! lahat na lang ng gustong gusto kong subjects hindi ko nakukuha! wenk wenk. i wasn't able to get into dr. sandoval's global marketing class! malas. malas. malas. malas na lang ako lagi sa draw-lots! kaya magbabayad na talaga ako bukas to be officially enrolled. at babalikan ko pa rin si sir sandoval sa thursday para mag prerog. hehehe.

life is beautiful. 'cos i'm inlove, este, alive. ang labo mo! nahihiya pa rin talaga ako sa txt brig ni aji. parang gusto kong kainin ako ng lupa. hehehe. GILBERT!!!

How Life Plays Out

2006-10-29T02:59:00.000+08:00

All teeny bopper love flicks are the same. Watch one and then you've watched all. It's funny why most romance movies evolve in that thing called serendipity. How it is portrayed as a fortunate accident. How lovers put their faith in the hands of fate. How scenes are pragmatic at first but end up being magical in its most phony sense. I may be the proverbial love idiot, which is probably why I am still single. Trying to decipher one's real intentions and motives is one of those things in which I badly need to excel. Duh, I even find it hard to rationalize my own actions at times, let alone someone else's. Nonetheless I believe in that thing called love. It just so happens that some individuals diminish the concept of love into a superficial and helpless emotion. The thought of people going gaga over love at first sight makes me shiver to my nerves, honestly. Reality check, there's no such thing as 'love at first sight.' Attraction would be acceptable, but not love. It saddens me that there are those who incessantly search for their special someone just for the sake of being happy. I wish for us to be accountable for our own happiness. I don't deny that romance adds color to our everyday life. But a healthy introspection and bond with ourselves would be our most effective foundation for all relationships we have.

Sleep-Deprived

2006-10-08T02:17:00.000+08:00

I woke up from a 12-hour sleep, did some text and phone conversations, did leisure reading which I haven't done for eons, watched some of the most mundane TV programs, and slept again for 5 hours despite a couple of requirements that are consequently piling up. More than a month ago, I was so looking forward to a day like today - no feasib, no blank stares infront of my monitor until wee hours of the morning, no carrying of large traveling bags for sleepovers, no alarm clocks, blahblahblah... no hassles of feasib!. I'm back to my old, feasib-free, routine. Yay!

Come to think of it, I really am sleep-deprived. If I were to sum up all the hours I had spent traveling from home to school and vice-versa ever since I started school, it would more or less be equal to 7,000 hours. 291 days! Wow. And I owe it all to the farthest part of Quezon City in which I live. Luging lugi ako sa tulog!

No More FEASIB!

2006-10-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

Feasib is over. Super yay! :D

Hong Kong trip 3 days before the feasib deadline.

Ay, Corregidor lang pala. ;P

Calle Dos!

One of the first weeks of cramming for feasib!

Contagious. Infectious. HR.

2006-09-15T19:04:00.000+08:00

Dahil Wala Akong Magawa

2006-08-09T23:33:00.000+08:00

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

Paranoid nga ako! ;P

2006-08-06T01:10:00.000+08:00

PERSONALITY DISORDER TEST

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

Ang corny ko naman. Puro moderate ako. Haaaaay.

Life, Oh Life!

2006-08-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

Masayang masaya ako ngayon. Sa lahat. In general. Yun lang. ;P

Ivan R., parating na ang ivan-kat friendship post! hehe. :D

Oo nga pala, congrats sa StratMark Team! Super galing niyo talaga! Kahit katiting lang ang UP population sa buong Araneta kanina, ang galing galing niyo pa rin! Let's go for grandslam ulit! :D

the big crowd

CBA-ers

You Color My World!

2006-07-18T09:09:00.000+08:00

I believe talent goes with the birth of an individual. Everyone is born with creative juices. It just so happens that there are unfortunate moments in which we try so hard to grow so fastly and just be succumbed by irrecognizable voices telling us that we are not good enough, hence, we stop dreaming and becoming better.

I was brought up with remarks that I would be the alter ego of my dad, in terms of his artistic facet, that is! I was made to believe that I could be a singer, painter and musician rolled into one. The first, I can still have a shot at. The latter two, I brought to a halt for quite some time now. I am just fortunate enough to still know how to handle my limitations. My fingers just don't seem to fall into the right places when I try to hone my drawing skills. Poor me.

We all have a gift of talent and sharing it with other people, especially the ones we love, is a way of giving it back to the One who showered us with it. We just have to boost each other's drive. Be blessed and be a blessing.

I wish for every one of us to give more pieces of us... to paint more, to draw more, to write more songs, to put music to letters more, to sing more, to dance more, to read more, to take more photos, to write more poetry, to bake more, to cook more, to teach more, to heal more, to design more, to dress more, to love more... to stumble more in the course of it and just laugh at and learn from it MORE!

A Happy, Happy Post!

2006-07-13T13:04:00.000+08:00

Zel, here's my long-overdue happy post! :D

My July 1-2 weekend was spent bonding with the rest of the UPCE HR Committee at Fontana. I definitely had fun - lots of it! Thanks to our Madame VP, Kate, for all the efforts and love for our committee. The 'Ultimate Bonding Experience' certainly paid off since our projects so far had been receiving nothing but wonderful comments. HR's on for spelling S-U-C-C-E-S-S this semester! :D

So there, reader. Indulge yourself with nothing but the vainest pictures of the ultimately bonded cam whores of the UPCE! :P

Visit my Multiply site for more photos. Bear with me though since it's still a bit cluttered. Will fix it as soon as I have the time.

Contagious. Infectious. Nakakahawa. The UPCE Human Resources Committee (hindi pa kami complete nyan!)

Enjoying Kate's super sarap sisig and some of her specialties after a couple of biyahe hours.

Good morning people!

yehesss! :D

Familia HR

05 July. UPCE's Applicants' Orientation. It was also a success. Thanks to the support of my fellow CE people especially to my HR friends. Thanks, Ivan R., for helping me with the theme. Thanks, Jo and Jac for hosting. Thanks, Mang Dong, for the free bilao of baked spaghetti. Hehe. Will post pictures as soon as I get copies from Bong or Jac. I was so great that I forgot to bring my cam on the day of my first-ever HR project. How pathetic is that?

11 July was such a looooong day. Ma'am Guevarra's party at Loyola Grand Villas. UPCE's Acquaintance Party at Tribu. A so-late-for-dinner-yet-too-early-for-breakfast meal at Eastwood's Somethin' Fishy. Sleepover at Zel and Kate's condo in Loyola Heights. Needless to say, I had a blast!

First off, we prepared stuff for the AP at Zel and Kate's condo while cooking steak, chicken, crepes, and a whole lot more just for the seven of us. Tell me, don't we love indulging ourselves with food (notwithstanding the critiques on crepe viscosity and culture-origins of gravies)?

banana and apple crepes on the go!

We dropped by at Tribu for awhile then we headed to Ma'am Guevarra's home. Saying her house is nice would definitely be an understatement. I loved it! It was like having a dose of a relaxing Tagaytay scenery amidst the busy roads of Quezon City. She was so accomodating and her husband as well. However, we weren't able to avail ourselves of her 10-dollar house tour since it was already past 9pm and we had to go back to Tribu and buy Norman's surprise cake as well.

Half of BA 173 class at Ma'am Guevarra's main dining

Unfortunately, Red Ribbon, Shoppersville and other cake shops along Katipunan were already closed so we had to resort to devising plan B. We bought a gallon of ice cream in a convenience store instead. However, we didn't let go of the cake-candle thing so we worked on our charms and went back to Red Ribbon to beg the employees to sell us a cake's candle not minding that it was their closing time. Fortunately, we were charming enough that the waiter gave us a small piece of candle for free! Thanks to you, mr. waiter, whoever you are. You were instrumental in helping us give our friend an unforgettable birthday experience. :D

Back to Tribu. Immediately after we arrived, the fake raffle contest began. I had to get Norman's ticket number unnoticeably at the start of the event since it was part of the plan and I was also in charge of the registration booth. Side kwento: part of the birthday bash was for us not to greet Norman the whole day, so imagine his surprise when his number was called and our surprise treat was unfolded! Haha.

The acquaintance party was a success! Congrats to you, zellybeans and to the rest of CE! :D

We stayed at Tribu for two more hours after the party. We had more fun until the night boozed off. We left Tribu at around 2am and headed to Eastwood for Somethin' Fishy. We were supposed to watch the 3am showing of Superman at Mall of Asia's IMAX but to our surprise, all tickets were sold out up to Sunday, regardless of showing time. Grabe! Kumain na lang ulit kami sa Eastwood. Hehe.

narinig mo na ba?? magpapainom si kate!

the boys!

present sa lahat ng pics si pat! hehe

BENG! BENG!

We went back to Zel and Kate's condo at around 4am and spent the rest of the night (este, morning) away. We were so tamad to rise with the morning sunlight that Ben and Zel missed their cardio-kickboxing classes (inggit na ko i want to join them as soon as i can!) and Jo, Glecy and Jac were late for their cheerleading practices. I super had fun! :D

P.S. Will edit this blog and post more pix soon! My dial-up's pretty much effed up that it couldn't be in parallel with my thrill of posting pictures! Gaaaah. To my friends asking for copies of our pix, will upload them all at my Multiply site or I'll burn copies for you na lang. Sorry, ang bagal talaga ng net ko eh!

Beautiful Strangers

2006-06-25T15:30:00.000+08:00

There are people capable of touching others’ lives without any sheer trace of effort. People who could trade a lifetime’s wish for an infinitesimal craving. People who could forget paternal compulsions just to breathe the spur of the moment. People who endure long years of studying just to figure out another path distinct from what they’re treading. People who found their goals not based on financial merits but that of moral principles. People who count not how many times they’ve fallen and got bruised but how they managed to rise back up with their heads held up high and their feet on the ground. People who manage to be grateful for being instruments to resolve others’ qualms at their own expense. People who could be beautiful even in the eyes of strangers.

I am just so fortunate to be surrounded with, or at least have encountered people such as them who constantly inspire me to hope and be a blessing. To look forward to a world filled with people like them would seem to defeat the meaning of reality. But the idealist in me believes that it is more rewarding to hope for a perfect world rather than just succumb to the cancers of indifference. After all, our legacy will be measured not by how much we have acquired but how much we have contributed.

A Dose of Laughter

2006-05-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

This is a repost from Glecy's blog. Laugh trip, swear! :D

Ngayon taong 2003, bente na ako. Shiyet. Ang edad na twenty ay wala nang kakabit na ‘teen’ sa dulo. Ibig sabihin, konti na lang ang mga nalalabing araw ko bago tuluyang magpaalam sa mundo ng pagiging teenager. Matanda na ako pero hanggang ngayon e aktibong miyembro pa rin ako ng batikang Alyansang Alpha No Papa.

Bakit ko ba naiisip 'to ngayon? Hay, paano kasi, lahat ng miyembro ng alyansa e ngayo'y attached na. Ewan ko ba kung anong sa may demonyo ang mga taong ito at sunud-sunod na nagsulputan ang mga mag-syota.Pakiramdam ko tuloy e ako na lang ang single. Kumbaga sa Sunken Garden, ako yung puno ng niyog: nag-iisa at out of place.Nung nakaraang taon lang, lahat ng kakilala ko e nagkakaisa sa aming alyansa: asiwa sa mga love songs, namimintas ng mga pangit na jowa, nandidiri sa mga nagho-holding hands, pinagtatawanan ang mga nagkakandungan, galit sa mga harapang nagp-PDA, asar sa mga laging nagde-date, nagwewelga laban sa mga love quotes sa text, at higit sa lahat e panatag ang loob na ang iba, tulad namin, ay talagang "meant to be alone." Masaya kaming lahat dahil alam naming mas maganda ang manatiling single.

Ohbutgoodnessgraciousgreatballsoffire! Nagulat na lang ako nang minsan ay ang dating kantang-kanta sa Love Song for No One e ngayo'y adik na sa Your Body is a Wonderland! Kala ko naman isa lang siyang tumiwalag sa alyansa. But no! Yung todo lait sa may mga pangit na boyfriend e sinusundo na bigla ng mga lalakeng gumwapo lang ng konti kay Bentong.

At aba, malapit-kaibigan naman e napapasma ang kamay kaka-HHWW o holding hands while walking. Kagulat-gulat din nung namataan ko yung dalawa kong orgmates na nagkakandungan sa Track Oval.Heto pa, pagdating ko sa tambayan kamakailan lang e may bumulagang bagong loveteam na parehong freshie lang at sila'y kuntodo PDA! Kung 'di ba naman minalas e yung lagi kong kasabay umuwi e inanod na sa Manila Bay para makipag-date sa Luneta. Nang nabasa ko naman ang cellphone nung isa e may "Love is like a rosary, it has many mysteries" pa siyang naka-save!

Yung pasimuno ng churee (theory) na "some are meant to be alone" e nakahanap na raw ngayon ng "da wan".Ultimo yung kaibigan kong vaklah e kinabog ako dahil may dalawa, hindi isa kundi dalawang papa na siya! Walang patawad talaga, pagka-uwi ko ng bahay e nagpaalam yung katulong namin at magpapakasal na raw sila ng kanyang "syutang si Rechard." Chakafez kayong lahat!!! Mga traydor!Iwan daw ba ko???

Hmph, kebs ko sa inyo! Mga hayup. E ano naman ang mapapala ninyo sa pagiging in love? Ang mga mag-boyfriend, maliit na mga bagay lang, warla na. Na-late lang sandali, away na. Nanood lang ng sine kasama ang ibang kaibigan, away na. Hindi lang masundo, away na. Nakalimutan lang mag-miss call, away na. Nagsuot lang ng spaghetti straps, away na. Hindi lang makalabas dahil may exam, away na. E ano pa kaya kung ang isyu e mga ex, mga dating manliligaw, mga crush, at kung anu-ano pa?! Warla!

Ang mahal pa ng presyo ng pagiging attached. Lunch sa school, gastos. Date, gastos. Gasolina, gastos. Birthday niya, gastos. Birthday ng nanay niya, gastos. Birthday ng tatay niya, gastos. Birthday ng kapatid niya, gastos. Anniversary, gastos. Monthsary, gastos. Weeksary, gastos. Christmas, gastos. New Year, gastos. Pagdating ng Valentine's Day, daig mo pa ang naholdap. Gastos!

Pag-taken ka na, wala ka nang panahon. Sa org mo, wala ka nang oras. Sa pamilya mo, wala ka nang oras. Sa pag-aaral mo, wala ka nang oras. Sa pakikipagsalamuha sa iba mong mga kaibigan, wala ka nang oras. Sa pagdalo sa iba't-ibang okasyon, wala ka nang oras. Parang ang bilis lagi ng araw dahil laging kailangang pagtuunan mo ng panahon ang boyfriend o girlfriend mo at wala ka nang magawang iba. Pang-ubos oras!O kita ninyo, ang pagiging attached e maraming masaklap na kalalabasan! Lagi ka nang mapapa-away, laging walang pera, at lagi ka pang uhaw sa oras para sa ibang bagay lalo na para sa sarili mo! Walang magandang maidudulot ang pagiging in love.

Hokeipayn... siguro meron. PERO KONTI LANG.Kapag pagod ka galing sa school, may magtatanggal ng stress mo. Kapag nalulungkot ka, may magpapasaya sa'yo. Kapag napupuno ka na sa dami ng pressure sa buhay mo, may magsasabing okay lang yan. Kapag galit ka na sa mundo, may magpapakalma sa'yo. Kapag naubusan ka na ng pre-paid internet card, may ka-chat ka sa telepono. Kapag hindi ka masundo ng tatay mo, may mag-uuwi sa'yo sa bahay. Kapag may bagong palabas sa sine, makakanood ka agad at hindi ka mabubulok na Spiderman pa rin ang huli mong napanood.

Kapag nagkaroon uli ng show si Rex Navarete sa UP, may ka-date ka na at hindi ka isang hamak na third wheel. Kapag pinalabas uli sa Film Center ang In the Mood for Love e in the mood ka talaga. Kapag dumating ang Stephen Speaks sa UP, alam mong ang Passenger Seat ay kanta ng boyfriend mo sa'yo at hindi ng kung sinong manyak na driver sa nasakyan mong Ikot kaninang umaga.

Kapag inabot ka ng gabi sa UP, boyfriend mo ang kasama mong tumingin sa mga tala at hindi ang iyong mga barkadang bakla na naghahanap ng mga nagmimilagro sa Sunken. Kapag may roses ka, alam ng mga taong galing yun sa boyps mo at hindi sa tumakbo sa Oblation Run. Kapag may family reunion, hindi ka pagkakamalang tomboy ng mga kamag-anak mo at hindi ka bibigyan ng aginaldo para bumili ng make-up para daw may magkagusto sa'yo dahil mukhang mauunahan ka na ng kapatid mong grade 6.

Kapag nagkita-kita kayo ng mga haliparot mong high school classmates e totoong lalake ang iku-kuwento mo at hindi ang naguumapaw na listahan ng mga kumare mong bakla. Hindi mo na pro-problemahin ang katorpehan female version dahil taken ka naman. Kapag may kumakalat na chismis na patay-na-patay ka raw sa isang lalake sa UP e hindi ka na mababahala tutal kayo na at siya ang patay-na-patay sa'yo. At higit sa lahat, hindi ka bitter ocampo.

Hasus! Sinong bitter? Sino? Sino, sino, sino ang bitter?!?! Ewan ko sa inyo, basta hindi ako yun. Hindi ako bitter, hindi, hindi, hindi!!

Summer, Summer, Summer!

2006-05-02T13:35:00.000+08:00

What's keeping me busy lately??

1. Helping the family start up an overseas employment agency.
- Matrabaho 'to, swear! Lots of international correspondence, although most are done through emails and phone calls. It's a super fun learning experience, though. The agency will be catering to applicants to Canada. I also have to attend a seminar in the POEA this May in line with this matter. I still have to do a lot of research. Enjoy naman! :D

2. DVD marathons.
- Wala na ko mapanood. Calling ivan! Kelan tayo mamimirata ulit?? hehehe

3. My mom's here!!
- That translates to endless "bili-mo-ko" shoppings! hehehe. And of course, catching up with a lot of things. One year rin kaming hindi nagkita 'no!

4. Renovation of my room.
- I already did some canvassing on the materials that have to be bought. Dapat matuloy na 'to this time! I want my room to have some touch of OC-ness. (To Glecy: na inspire ako sayo! hehe)
5. Cebu, Cebu, Cebu!
- Although this one's tentative yet. My super galante aunt is already there. She arrived from the States last Sunday. My cousins from Davao are going there, too. Dapat nandun din kami! haha :D

6. Vigan Trip!
- c/o Kate and her Art Stud summer class (hindi pa ako nagpapaalam! waaah)

7. Bora Trip
- c/0 Kate ulit and the rest of my BA friends (sana payagan ako. pero i think, malabo :[ )

8. Mag compute ng GWA.
- I already know all my grades for last sem, though I haven't been to UP since March. Thanks to the CRS, although hindi siya ganon ka reliable. My Business Law professor finally emailed us our grades just this noon. Yung subject na yun na lang ang hinihintay ko sa CRS ever since. My grades are okay. Gusto ko ako rin mahawa sa GC-culture ng CBA. Waaaahh. Promise, this sem talaga, magsisipag na ako! On a positive note, tumaas naman GWA ko kahit papano. hehe.

9. Explore my new laptop.
- Just got it last Saturday. Yehey! It's a Toshiba M70 P543 and it's orange! Plus may free Canon PIXMA MP150 printer pa and optical mouse! (To Zel: I don't need a new laptop as a condition for me to enter Law School anymore. Yey! Iba na lang! Car? haha.. bad girl!)

10. Patuloy na bolahin ang aking kapatid
- ... na magpalit kami ng laptop dahil mas maganda ang sa kanya... pati freebies! She has a printer and an iPOD for freebies! Pero she can get it next week pa ata. Cge na.. Please, please, please! (To ate: If you're reading this, ayan ah.. mega broadcast na ang enthusiasm ko ng makipagpalit sayo! hehe)

Schizofairnia II

2006-02-13T02:42:00.000+08:00

East of Eden

2005-12-26T19:46:00.000+08:00

"i believe that there is one story in the world, and only one... Humans are caught - in their lives, in their thoughts, in their hungers and ambitions, in their avarice and cruelty, and in their kindness and generosity too - in a net of good and evil... and it occurs to me that evil must constantly respawn, while good, while virtue, is immortal."

-John Steinbeck, East of Eden

Of MD5, Personality, and Projective Tests

2005-12-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

when greg asked me to be his subject for one of his psych reports this semester, natuwa ako at na-excite. imagine, i could be able to find out if i'm normal or not for free! hehe. kidding. seriously, if it weren't for greg, i wouldn't have agreed to be subjected to a series of psychological tests. hehe. that's how i trust him. naks, bibop!

so there, i went to UST kanina. we met at wendy's with ivan then nilibre niya (greg) muna ko for merienda at wendy's. kasi daw client niya ako! haha. o dba! ang swerte naman ng mga future clients niya. after that, i took some of the psy exams. i was personally administered by him. naku, parang professional na talaga si greg! swear! he was like this: "ok kat, read the directions together with me." then afterwards he would say, "ok, if you need anything, or if you have questions, i'll just be standing right there." natatawa nga ako eh. tapos siya naman.. pag hindi nakatingin yung prof nila, he would say, "kat! ano ka ba! wag kang smile ng smile!" i'm not used to his being formal kasi. buddy-buddy ko kasi siya talaga back in hs. he's still one of the guys whom i'm comfortable being with until now.

after the exams, we went to sm edsa. sinamahan ko siya to buy his exchange gift for their party. we were supposed to watch a movie. i wanted to watch just like heaven sana pero puro king kong na yung showing sa cinemas. eh tomorrow namin papanoorin yung king kong at eastwood with our other hs friends. so ayun, we decided to eat dinner na lang. after a couple of undirected walks of searching for some chinese or japanese resto, we ended up at super bowl. ang daming tao sa lahat ng tinignan naming restos na ndi pa namin na ttry. so ayun, sa super bowl rin ang bagsak namin. hehe. we ended up paying P500 plus ata for our bill. grabe, dadalawa lang naman kami. not to mention, we're on a diet pa sa lagay na yan! hahaha. ok lang, fun naman eh. :D

High

2005-12-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

Will it ever be?
I've tried so hard to find sweet serenity
Are you still afraid?
Just close your eyes and dream,
and feel it fade away.

Time won't flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away
And dreams won't die, with tears in our eyes
You've got to hold your head up high….

It's taken some time,
And I've given up the will to change your state of mind
Try and understand,
It's not so hard to see that I am just a man.

Time won't flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away
And dreams won't die, with tears in our eyes
You've got to hold your head up high….

Will it ever be?
I've tried so hard to find sweet serenity
Try and understand,
It's not so hard to see that I am just a man.

Time won't flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away
And dreams won't die, with tears in our eyes
You've got to hold your head up high….

Ayan, I found the lyrics! hehe.. naririndi na kasi saken sina mina at kris ng kakakanta ko ng "time won't flow.. everyone knows... lalalalalala... and dreams won't die... lalalala.. you've got to hold your head up hiiiiiigh!" ng paulit ulit ulit.. hehehe.. ang ganda talaga ng version nito with barbie almabis. the first time i heard it, it never ceased to play in my mind. kahit nung nag eexam ako for marketing, eto yung paulit ulit kong nakakanta in my mind. hehe. haaaay, speaking of that exam, ang haba niya ah! tapos si kris naman daw, when she was having her exam sa managerial accounting, yung theme song ng sea games yung nakakanta niya.. hahaha.. until sa campus sale.. paulit ulit niyang kinakanta.. "sulong, laban.. blah blah blah..." ang funny..

post-birthday-celebration-slash-barkada-reunion

2005-12-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

this was last december 03. happy, happy, happy! minsan minsan na lang kami dumami ng ganito.. sayang wala si marian and greg.. nkakamiss tuloy nung high school.. hehehe.. :D

for more, view this: kat's webshots

after 10 years... hehe

early birds! it was 9pm na ata when they arrived. ang galing nga eh, nag commute lang silang lima pero nahanap nila yung house namin. hehe. buti na lang daw may nakasabay silang passenger sa fx who lives in the same village as ours.

girls! kulang pa kami.

with guian :D

thank you

2005-11-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me! :D thanks to everyone! ang saya saya saya ko! :D

untitled

2005-11-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

Day 2 of cleaning my room paid off, as in literally paid off! hehehe. i found 300+ pesos buried somewhere in my once trashy bedroom. ndi na siya trashy ngayon. yehessssss! ;P

Looking Back

2005-11-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

I'm soooooooooo tired. I had my general cleaning for my whole room after million gazillion years. Haha. Worse, I am not yet done with it. Now I'm feeling my dear scolio taking its toll. Poor kat. :(

Amidst a couple of rounds of skimming and throwing papers, I got hold of some of my poems back in high school. Long-forgotten ones, if I may say. I don't really like writing poems, which I think makes me have a hard time remembering them even if they were my own. I wouldn't have given time writing poems if they weren't required. Hmmmmm.. Come to think of it, I never really did write a poem just for the sake of pleasure! I usually would just content myself reading novels or short stories, but not poems. ;P

So there, I'm posting two of my forcedly-written poems. I think I was in 2nd or 3rd yr high school back then.

Due to lack of title, I call this 'the mushy poem.'

I wished, you prayed
... we met.

I hoped, you waited
... we came along.

I smiled, you grinned
... we understood.

I listened, you talked
... we communicated.

I wrote, you sang
... we made music.

I cried, you consoled
... we got stronger.

I laughed, you chuckled
... we bonded.

I struggled, you fought
... we got braver.

I pondered, you reminisced
... we cherished.

I trusted, you cared
... we loved.

Hala, ako ba talaga nagsulat nito? Reality check. Ang corny ko pala talaga. Hehehe. Justifiable naman eh, high school pa lang ako niyan. :P

And here's the other one...

The Awakening

I am of my youth
carefree, exhuberant

But still
...worried of the struggles I'll fight
...worried of the voyage I'll take

DARKNESS...
filled my mind
scathed my insides
loathed my endeavors
prepared my pillory

Here I am,
still gaping...

LIGHT...
avenged my staleness
recovered my sanity
headed my awakening

There, at least ito medyo hindi corny. hehehe. Sleepy na ako. Baboof! :D

Wishing and Hoping

2005-11-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

I'm turning nineteen. Not that I intend to tell the whole world that my birthday is fast-approaching. I've just come to the realization that I'll be leaving my teenage phase approximately a year after now. Hmmmm... I'm not making a big deal out of it. At the very least, I think I'm not. Even my being a long-term plan junkie doesn't seem to fit as an excuse. Note, long-term.

I've known myself to be future-oriented. Strong point, you may think. But if truth be told, I see it as a weakness. Sometimes, my strong inclination towards the future blinds me off of seeing the beautiful details I should've been giving my attention to. There are times when I get so pre-occupied of my passion that I seem to forget how to live life 'un-jaded-ly', for the lack of a better term. How ironic it is to be jaded by your own passion, isn't it?

In less than a week's time, I'm getting a year older. I'm not much of a birthday wish buff. But this time, I'm really wishing for something to happen. I wouldn't be blogging about it, though. Hehehe. Sorry for the bitin effect. Although I'm not expecting, the fact remains that yes, I'm hoping. Lord, please please plssssssss. :D

Aside from my big birthday wish, I also have a couple of little ones as presents for myself. (Disclaimer: I would still be accepting and appreciating tangible ones, so it's okay to give me some. Hehehe. ;P)

First off, I want to be successful in fathoming what is it I really want. Shux, ang broad naman ata ng sentence ko. What I'm saying is, I'll be graduating soon. Although not so soon, thing is, malapit lapit na rin yon. Up to now, I still don't know what to do after that. I don't know if I'd be studying again or I'd just be working na lang. See, I told you, I'm too pre-occupied with future stuff. Hehe. My parents want me to go to law school. Why wouldn't they want me to if their older daughter is taking a good shot at it? Haaay, ang hirap talaga kapag may kapatid kang role model. You are to be sued for this, my kapatid. Hehehe. Oh well, if I'm gonna be pursuing it, I just want to be sure that I'm doing it not just for the love of the title, but more of for world peace. Haha, labo. Kidding aside, I just want to be sure that I want it for real. :D

Next, I want to be as carefree as possible. This I would have a hard time achieving. I really, really, really envy people who can easily give in to their senses. No matter how I try to be impulsive, I just can't. Well, for the reason that being impulsive has negative connotations, I'll try to be as carefree as possible na lang. Like, I want to have the courage to drop things off for the love of short-term happiness. Hehehe. Anything won't hurt if done in moderation, I motion.

Third, I don't want to be affected by the cynicism attributed to the world. I still believe that it's beautiful. It's not that I'm being narrow- or even close-minded. Neither am I being too idealistic. Take into consideration that I'm not the kind of person who would easily agree if bombarded with strong points of view. I may not be the type who would want to argue on such matters. But still, I have my own opinions. I want to face the real world knowing that it's the best and only place to live my life to the fullest.

Last, I want to find my real happiness. :D

mr. boredom's visit

2005-11-20T00:15:00.000+08:00

mr. boredom's visit

FIRSTS

First best friend: si jehan. childhood bestfriend! ever since nursery classmates na kami.. hehe
First car: wala. :P
First break-up: wala rin. :P
First screen name: wala eh. uhm, kat?! hehe
First self purchased album: hmmmmm.. soundtrack of romeo and juliet.. grade 3 ata ako nun.. i bought it dahil sa lovefool na song.. haha..
First funeral: my uncle's
First pets: c bluegard. dog.
First big trip: i went to cebu and back by myself when i was in highschool!
First music you remember hearing in your house: nursery rhymes??

LASTS

Last car ride: yesterday
Last kiss: wala ngang first eh. haha.
Last good cry: this week. by myself lang. i don't want crying in public. even at home, i don't like someone seeing me cry. hehe
Last movie seen: the legend of zorro
Last beverage: water
Last food consumed: vita quaker. :P
Last crush: hmmmm. bow.
Last phone call: my sis
Last time showered: kanina lang...
Last shoes worn: flip flops
Last item bought: civil code.. for my law class.. not with my own money though.. hehe

RELATIONSHIPS

Who is your very best friend: hmmmm.. ivan?? nyahaha.
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: wala. haha. si acads. yuck.

FASHION/STUFF

Where is your favorite place to shop: none in particular. i'm not picky.
Any tattoos or piercings: 2 piercings, no tattoo!

SPECIFICS

Do you do drugs: hmmm. stopped. hahaha. kidding. never did and never will.
What kind of shampoo do you use: for dry hair!
What are you listening to right now: tv
Where do you want to get married: catholic church with a very, very long aisle. :)
How many buddies are online right now: 7
What would you change about yourself: hmmmm.. being too shy at first.. hehe

FAVORITES

Color: black and white
Food: pinoy foods!
Boys' names: kahit ano. i like spanish-sounding names for guys. hehe.
Girls' names: sofia, jamila, alexei, etc... gusto ko may meanings.
Subjects in school: hmmmm... finance? haha.

HAVE YOU EVER

Taken a bath with someone: nung bata..
Smoked: tried once.. as in one puff lang.. never consumed a stick..
Made yourself throw up: oo. haha.
Skinny dipped: not yet
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: ayoko nga ng umiiyak in front of people dba.. hehe
Pictured a crush naked: no
Actually seen a crush naked: no rin.
Cried when someone died: yeah.
Lied: of course.
Fallen for your best friend: no
Rejected someone: oo.. tsk.
Used someone: never..
Done something you regret: yes, of course. pero not the type na life-changing naman yung ginawa ko..

CURRENT

Clothes: now? shorts and a very, very big shirt. hehe.
Music: anything but country
Make-up: now? wala.
Favorite artist: ndi ko alam

LAST PERSON

Hugged: dunno.
You IMed: hazel

ARE YOU

Open Minded: yes, most of the time.. i think..
Arrogant: depends..
Interesting: sana. pero i think i'm not.
Moody: not quite
Hardworking: i guess.. pero i cram most of the time.. :P
Organized: how i wish!
Healthy: well.. wala akong sakit.. and i'm not a health buff
Bored: Obviously.
Responsible: a proud yes.. hehe
Angry: no.. no reason..
Sad: quite
Disappointed: yes
Hyper: no.. when i'm with my closest friends lang.. or cousins..
Trusting: Yup, sobra.
Talkative: ndi mashado
Legal: 18!

WHO DO YOU WANNA

Kill: si katie holmes. hehe.
Slap: wala naman.
Talk to online: wala for now.

WHICH IS BETTER

Coke or Pepsi: Coke, no doubt.
Flowers or candy: flowers, basta ndi yung pang funeral..
Tall or short: tall na lng
Thick or thin: neither

RANDOM

In the morning I am: sober
What do you notice on a person first: if there's one thing that UP taught me about this, dapat kilatisin ko muna if straight ba siya or not. haha. haaay.. deceiving guys.. hehe.. it's true nga ata what they said back when i was in my freshman year.. half of the UP male population aren't straight, half of that half are gays, half of that are bi's.. etc.. hehe..
Last person you danced with: can't remember.
Who makes you smile: as in one person lang? wala eh. ewan. minsan meron. minsan wala. magulo. hehe.
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: hs friends.. hehe.. actually ndi funny yung term.. happy.. :D
Who do you have crush on: wala now. yuck kat, get a life! hehe.
Who has a crush on you: di ko alam

DO YOU EVER

Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: no.. kung ayaw mo wag mo! hehe
Wish you were young: yes.. para carefree always..

NUMBER

Of times I have had my heart broken: hmmm. twice?
Of hearts I have broken: im not sure..
Of boys I've kissed: zero! hehe
Of girls I've kissed: zero forever!
Of continents I have lived in on: one!
Of cds I own: i dont know.

no title

2005-11-18T07:04:00.000+08:00

Author unknown

My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love
him for his steady
nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean
against his broad
shoulders.

Three years of courtship and now, two years into
marriage, I would
have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The
reasons of me
loving him before, has now transformed into the
cause of all my
restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive
when it comes to a
relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the
romantic moments, like
a little girl yearning for candy. My husband, is my
complete
opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of
bringing
romantic moments into our marriage has
disheartened me about love.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision,
that I wanted a
divorce.

"Why?" he asked, shocked.

"I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in
the world!" I
answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in
deep thought with a
lighted cigarette at all times. My feeling of
disappointment only
increased, here was a man who can't even express
his predicament,
what else can I hope from him? And finally he
asked me:" What can I
do to change your mind?"

Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a
person's personality,
and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.
Looking deep into
his eyes I slowly answered :
"Here is the question, if you can answer and
convince my heart, I
will change my mind, Let's say, I want a flower
located on the face
of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that
picking the flower
will cause your death, will you do it for me?"

He said : " I will give you your answer tomorrow...."
My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and
saw a piece of
paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a
milk glass, on the
dining table near the front door, that goes....
My dear, "I would not pick that flower for you, but
please allow me
to explain the reasons further.."

This first line was already breaking my heart. I
continued reading.

"When you use the computer you always mess up
the Software programs,
and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save
my fingers so
that I can help to restore the programs. You
always leave the house
keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush
home to open the
door for you. You love traveling but always lose
your way in a new
city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way.
You always have
the cramps whenever your "good friend"
approaches every month, I
have to save my palms so that I can calm the
cramps in your tummy.
You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will
be infected by
infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell
you jokes and
stories to cure your boredom. You always stare at
the computer, and
that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to
save my eyes so
that when we grow old, I can help to clip your
nails, and help to
remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also
hold your hand
while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the
sunshine and the
beautiful sand... and tell you the color of flowers,
just like the
color of the glow on your young face...
Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is
someone who loves you
more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet,
and die.. "

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his
handwriting... and as I continue on reading... "Now,
that you have
finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied,
please open the
front door for I am standing outside bringing your
favorite bread
and fresh milk... I rush to pull open the door, and
saw his anxious
face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk
bottle and loaf of
bread....

Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as
much as he does,
and I have decided to leave the flower alone...

That's life, and love. When one is surrounded by
love, the feeling
of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore
the true love that
lies in between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms, even very small and
cheeky forms, it has
never been a model, it could be the most dull and
boring form.. .
flowers, and romantic moments are only used and
appear on the
surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar
of true love
stands... and that's our life...

Love, not words win arguments...

if only i were

2005-11-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

If Only I Were...

to be continued na lang this post.. hehe.. inaantok na ako! weeeeeehhh...

What's New

2005-11-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

What's New?

hmmmm.. ang tagal na pala since my last entry.. anyway, magkkwento nlng ako.. i just had my enrollment kanina.. i got my grades.. i'm so happy kahit sabit lang for college scholar yung average ko.. i wasn't expecting naman talaga since the last semester was such a major torture.. really.. puro cramming lang ang alam ko nun.. ano pa ba.. ayun.. after 5 months, i had my haircut yesterday.. hehe.. wala naman.. the koreanang hilaw with the bangs look.. hehe.. trip lang.. nag experiment lang ako.. hmmmm... i'm excited to go to school na.. ewan ko ba.. after all my acad years, ngayon lang ako na excite.. hehe

i have to exert my effort to the nth power na talaga this coming semester.. promise.. i'll try my very, very best not to cram.. this time it's for real na talaga! swear, swear, swear! :P

i was inspired by zel's latest entry.. and i quote her,

"Gusto ko mag-graduate ng may "laude" na nakadugtong sa pangalan ko.

May reklamo?"

Godspeed. :D

ah basta, i'm happy with my life now.. period.. weeeeeeeeh! :D

you maaaaaaaaaaaake me feeeeeeeeeel like iiiiiii.. i feel cloooooooser to the skyyyyyyy....

hekhekhek ;P

Just a Thought

2005-09-18T11:37:00.000+08:00

Just a Thought

bakit ganon...

when i'm happy, i can't blog why i am.
when i'm sad naman, melancholic thoughts are overflowing.

eh now, why can't i post??
i've been wanting to blog for the longest time but after some lightyears of gazing at the posting page... BLANK... how many times have i decided to hit the 'sign out' button instead.

sigh.

am i really happy?

... guess i am!

pathetically dense

2005-09-07T21:38:00.000+08:00

Pathetically Dense

I read this from my Friendster Bulletin. I find this blatantly absurd. Read on...

It's so hirap talaga to study in UP, the University of the Poor. You know, I never wanted to study here. But my parents kasi, they both went to UP and they said na it was the best school talaga. Eh 'di I went. But no! When I got here, Holy horrors! I was ready to make himatay after the first day palang.

Would you believe, there's no aircon na nga in the classrooms, the fan doesn't work pa. And then this guy who was like, wearing a sando, shorts and tsinelas lang made tabi next to me. He made pakilala pa! The nerve! So I made takbo to the CR to make tago. But I couldn't make hugas my hands that were so pawis from escaping such a near-death experience. There was no liquid soap! Not even a couch where I could sit to make kikay.

Do you feel my pain na ba? But wait, there's more. Last Thursday kasi Daddy's Volvo was bawal, eh the Eclipse was being repaired, so I had to make sakay with my yaya in the Ikot jeep. It was so siksik! I could like, smell the putok of the girl next to me. Like, it was sobrang mabaho talaga. kasi naman, theIkot jeeps are old na nga, they're mainit pa! Sana they make palit na the jeeps with a shuttle system. Okey lang naman even if there's an increase in pamasahe di ba? So when the car is bawal, I can use my credit card na to make bayad.

Isa pa, you know the Shopping Center? It's so kadiri talaga. I'm forced na nga to make Xerox there, (as if naman I would be caught in that place otherwise) pero I'm so inis because it's so madilim and maliit, and most of the stalls don't have aircon. They should tear it down na and build a mall na lang. Then I wouldn't have to go to Katipunan pa to get my Starbucks fix.

My gosh, this place is so bulok I don't know nga why anyone would bother making turo here pa. Just yesterday, my professor was kinda inis kasi her whiteboard marker had no more tinta! Then she tried to make hanap a matino whiteboard marker but of course there was none. Duh! Kasi naman if we had laptops instead of desks in every classroom there would be no more need for whiteboards di ba? But you know even if there were laptops na, the seats are so tigas sometimes I find it mahirap to concentrate. Dapat may cushioning para malambot sa butt, like Downy. Now I'm in my fourth year na. I don't want to stay in this place anymore. I don't give a paki if UP's the best university here. I'm going to transfer to LaSalle, where the CRs have liquid soap. Now na.

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And to whoever wrote this (kung totoo man toh), I say...

you are so funny!

and the hell month starts...

2005-09-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

and the hell month starts...

wake me up when september ends, please! i still can't see the sembreak along the horizon. cases... exams... cases... papers... cases... exams... gaaaawwwd... i just hope i'd pass that stupid 115 class. how i wish i'm spending my 115 with ma'am valcarcel (yeah, my friends are gonna laugh at me with this) than my prof. i shouldn't have taken it this sem! and i hate the fact that i had spent two days of manually enlisting just to have a slot. too much waste of time. it wasn't productive at all, really! if not for seeing [dei, insert name here], attending it would be utterly pointless. haha. :P

anyway, enough of dissing my 115 class. there's more to this semester than that stupeet, stupeet 115 class. (oh, did i say i'm gonna stop dissing it? :D) first, i was able to bond with my BA friends more. i'm not gonna be expounding on this since i'm reserving a special post just for them when this sem ends. :D i love my current block. Block A's the way.. hehe. second, i'm at peace with my exam results as of now, except for that shitty 115 exam (swear, i tried hard not to curse it!). third, i'm happy with what's going on with my life now.

i wanna blog more but i've awakened to the fact that another 115 exam is fast approaching... i have to make bawi for 115. wish me luck. :D oh, and i still have to fathom 10 or so problems pa pala for my finance class tomorrow...

you maaaaaaaaaaake me feel like i.... i feel cloooooooser to the sky!

2005-08-31T18:52:00.000+08:00

happy birthday, Mama!

you're the best. i love you and i'll always will. thanks for inspiring me. mwaaaahugggggssss. :D

tag me! hehe.

untitled

2005-08-30T22:37:00.000+08:00

untitled

and i don't know how i knew it

but i knew it somehow

i found the answer to the question

no one answered 'til now...

my apologies to mr. rex smith for murdering the lyrics. teehee. :D

happy as can be. finally. ;P

I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time...

I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will... someday.

- American Beauty

I found this at dom's blog. ang ganda.

calle: unleashing rhythm and style

2005-08-29T20:23:00.000+08:00

UP Circle of Entrepreneurs

and

KICKERS, TIMEZONE,

YEHEY, PULP, THE DISH

in cooperation with

Seattle's Best Coffee, Magic 89.9,99.5 RT, and NU 107

presents:

Calle: Unleashing Rhythm & Style

(a street dance competition and fashion show)

September 2, 2005

Friday, 7:00 pm at DISH (ABS-CBN)

Tickets at 200 PhP

Inclusive of dinner

For inquiries, contact Kat at 09176421105

See you there! :D

spoiling the innocent way

2005-08-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

spoiling the innocent way

i'm currently reading harry potter and the halfblood prince. uber thanks, glecy. :D

since the book was released, quite a lot of my friends have read it na, and everytime they ask me if i also did, i tell them that i haven't, do a shhhhh-ing gesture, and beg them not to tell me who died and who the half blood prince is. thanks to my dear friends for holding their kindled emotions and not revealing who's who, though they were really tease-y. :D

in the midst of my hp dumbfoundedness, i had this conversation with ivan, my hs friend, awhile ago...

ivan: KAAAAAAATTTTTT!!!

kat: wow! ang lakas naman.. oh, ano? bakit ka tumawag? i'm reading harry potter. bawal istorbo.. hehehe..

(there was a semi-long kwento. not about hp6, though.)

kat: o cge na, magbabasa na ko ulit.

ivan: ano, namatay na ba si -----?

kat: i hate youuuuuu!!!! bakit mo sinabi? spoiler ka! ang daldal mo... spoiler ka talaga.. nakakaasar... alam mo bang hindi ko pa yan alam until now... haynako.. spoiler ka!!!

ivan: whaaat?? hindi mo pa yun alam?? may website na nga na www.-----isnotdead.com

kat: no!!! spoiler!!!!

ivan: hahahahahaha.. hindi ko naman alam eh...

haaay. after all this time that i've shut myself from finding out what's the gist of hp6... blaaah... wala lang... anyway, hindi naman sinadya eh... it's okie dokie okay! :D

magbabasa na lang ulit ako. ;P

deja vu

2005-08-19T11:24:00.000+08:00

deja vu

i don't usually remember what happens in my dreams. but the one i had the night before last... swear, ang galing! thing is, that dream either consciously or unconsciously led me to do something... you know the strange feeling when you cannot delineate whether your conscious or subconscious mind works... call it deja vu... call it paramnesia... call it disorder... thing is, you associate something that happened in the present with something that may or may not have happened in the past, even with dreams... basta it was really strange and eerie.. mygawwwd... it confirmed my premonitions... and i don't know whether i should be happy or not...

you maaaaaaaake me feeeeeeel like i... i feel clooooooser to the sky...

carpe diem... seize the day... and so BE IT! :D

Due to free time...

2005-08-16T20:16:00.000+08:00

Due to free time...

isn't the feeling so rewarding when you don't have to think of acad-related things? :D

i watched bewitched with lora and malou after classes. it was so funny. absolutely no dragging part! last week, i cut my HBO class just to watch charlie and the chocolate factory. lora BI-ied me eh. hehe. hindi naman ako marunong tumanggi. hahaha.

i've been wanting to blog for years, yet, now that i have the time, i just can't think of anything that's worth blogging for.

oh yes, i wanna blog about our aiesec internship group's meeting with the japanese exchange trainee last friday. i promised vida pa nga eh. hehe. i just don't know how to write it in an un-demeaning way. un-demeaning in our part and his as well. he was nice, no arguments about it. there were just some funny things which i deem unbloggable. :D hahaha. don't get me wrong, the experience was enriching. let's leave it at that. :D

anyway, regarding my previous post... i passed finance! yey! :D

and finance was over...

2005-08-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

and finance was over...

P (kat passes) = . 50

P (kat fails) = 1 - . 50

the basic accounting equation states that:

assets = liabilities + equity

following that logic in preparing a company's cash budget,

if projected assets > projected (liabilities + shareholders' equity), then external financing is needed, either through debt or equity.

however, in a BA 141 exam scenario,

if total points of short and long problems > total points for multiple choice items, then bonus points should account for more than half of the total no. of points.

nonsense.

that's what you get from an almost-four-hour exam, paired with an electricity shutdown, matched with the ceaseless rustling of paper sheets, along with the accompaniment of native instruments heard from across the hustling breeze of the sunken garden.

weeeeeeeeeh! one friggin' exam down.. :D

2005-08-02T18:01:00.000+08:00

"We live everything as it comes, without warning, like an actor going on cold. And what can life be worth if the first rehearsal for life is life itself."

earth to kat: finance exam bukas... mag-aral ka na! harharhar

and you thought i was doing just fine...

2005-07-31T20:53:00.000+08:00

and you thought
i was doing just fine...

in the eighteen years and eight months of my existence, i haven't cried in public. not that i'm proud of it. i just don't like the feeling of being curiously looked at by a lot of strangers while i'm trying to gain my emotional stability. i think i have this gift of effortlessly suppressing intense emotions in front of a lot of people just for the sake of appearing... fine. crying brings my emotions to equlibrium, especially when doing it alone. it's sort of a defense mechanism in my dealing with times of stress and depression. it gives me relief, really.

i find it weird why i could actually blog this and let the public know of it when in fact, i can't even do the deed in front of them. i can't even believe that i'm really blogging this. i'm so much of a private person, even my closest friends can attest to that. details usually get screwed up even when i'm just trying to share simple personal things. anyway, i'm in the mood to share.

don't get me wrong. i'm not a cry baby. i only cry when i can't contain the pain anymore. neither am i putting you under the impression that my life is quite hapless. i love it. given a chance to live another one, i'd still choose mine. i mean... i have a great family, supportive relatives, understanding friends, wonderful experiences, etc. it's just that contentment seems to stay in a state wherein it's so near yet at the same time, so far. i believe it is man's nature to always live on the verge of acquiring something more... of being something better.

isn't it amazing why we cry when we feel sad? i mean, isn't it a wonder why tears have to fall? why not simply feel sad without any contingent reaction? oh well, some things are better left unanswered. it just happens. period.

in the solace of my room, i often try to to imbibe the character i want to be. i assess everything from the most quintessential to the most life-changing. would doing this help me to attain that? what consequences would this lead to? am i capable enough? was i stupid? insensitive? unproductive? the four walls of my room have been witnesses to all these. when i get too deep, i can't hold back my emotions anymore - for as long as i'm in solitude. i haven't cried for quite a long time. not until recently. it was just one of those days in my routine life when things were going too mundanely. then suddenly, with no apparent instigation whatsoever, as if acceding more to the principles of free-fall motion, tears started dropping.

if only my subconscious can utter a description of what i've been becoming lately, one word would suffice: indifferent. i fear being like one. i can still remember how my philo professor put it, "the opposite of love is not hatred, but indifference." i don't want to lose the feeling of feeling something. if truth be told, i'd rather hate something than to show nonchalance and just be numb. it's pointless.

i have not the slightest idea. my "indifference" might be caused by my being so stuck on the past to the point that i overlook the opportunities surrounding me. i don't know. it's just that i have so much nice memories of the past that i have this bad habit of comparing it with the present. sometimes it's just so hard not to have regrets. letting go was quite easy. moving on is just so hard.

Individual people get stuck in some point of their lives and do not get free. Life in the past cannot be shared with the present. Each person who gets stuck in time gets stuck alone.

that's from Einstein's Dreams. my friend shared it to me when i was emotionally low before. i almost forgot it. good thing it's in his blog.

i was reminded.

great...

2005-07-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

great...

great things happen to me in times wherein i have the slightest feeling that something great is going to happen...

and i'm glad it happened again...

and i'm smiling...

...again!

indeed, God has His way of balancing things out....

and it's just so... great!

2005-07-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

'cause what i don't understand

is why i'm feeling so bad now

when i know it was my idea

i could've just denied the truth and lied

now why am i the only one standing stranded

on the same ground

self-denial

is a game so strange

i never really should've wanted

'til there was you

'cause i have learned that love was beyond

what human can imagine

more it clears

the more i gotta let you go...

2005-07-06T03:44:00.000+08:00

helloooooooooo world! i'm kat. and i'm just so... consumed! can't even remember when was the last time i had a life!

school sucks. super busy. no time for blogging muna. i'm off.

2005-07-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

yehesssss... it's friday night! i could sleep for as long as i want!

2005-06-26T19:36:00.000+08:00

disclaimer: i wasn't the one who wrote the poem below. my sister did. i was reading her literary works awhile ago. and yes, i had a hard time containing my pride of having a sister who's not only an intellectual but an artsy-fartsy poet as well.

to the future atty. del castillo: (naks!) hoy! kelan ang libre ko? haha. how i wish i was also gifted with your poetic muse. yes, my weaknesses are your strengths and my strengths are your weaknesses. haha. extremes talaga tayo! best of luck in your hardwork of becoming a lawyer. take it easy, mehn!

THE MORIBUND WARRIOR

Astride in the palomino of fanatical girth,

A musket refrained the circulation of being;

Trussed malevolently by rage

Rammed forward wherein Indians fought.

Layeth, dragged and driven

Towards the methodological and mystical norms.

Seen in a foggy cloud of vapor:

Suckling infant –

Crawling toddler –

Bruised boy –

Morbid adolescent –

Bitter manhood –

Visions clogged the core of deliverance

Amputated the heart,

the body,

the essence,

the totality of the soul.

Strength,

eaten by cowardice.

Cowardice,

gobbled by fear.

Fear,

a step up derangement.

Terror clasped all

Head thrown back, rancorous

In askance, towards life.

Antagonistic, dead life.

Then, the warrior sleeps …

rendel

june 15, ‘98

( first poem written in college )

The Disembodying of Life

2005-06-25T02:34:00.000+08:00

The Disembodying of Life

i've seen it in dreams. i've experienced it in actuality. i've felt it for real.

LIFE. it goes on.

concreting a beautiful concept such as 'life' in a single definition is indeed, ridiculous. i find it preposterous that for some, the satisfaction of an incorporeal notion such as life is confined to when a person is born, savors his life, then dies. life is more than just a vicious cycle bound to delineate death from immortality. it's not about counting how many breaths you take. life is more than just going beyond limits, transcending horizons, and making a name. it's not about wearing masks and dressing in armors. if truth be told, life is more than just discovering things and being able to cope with pressures. it's not about how many goals you achieve, what papers you ace, or what grades you get. life is not all about being on top and viewing the picture on a bigger perspective. these just don't embody what life is all about.

life is knowing how to love and being able to feel loved. it's being able to believe in yourself and trusting the people around you. life is about having passions, dreams, goals, and being able to share it with people you love. it's about strategizing plans, overcoming problems and building confidence. life is about accepting challenges and taking risks. it's about understanding what compassion is and being able to share it when circumstances tell you. life is a continuous process of respecting and earning respect. life is all about noticing minute details and cherishing moments that take your breath away. it's about being an instrument of touching someone else's life in a way that has never been believed possible. most importantly, life is all about having FAITH. and yes, faith is not just knowing that God can, it's believing that He will.

Yes, my Lord. In Your Time. All else will happen In Your Time.

2005-06-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

WoooHooo

for this week.

BA 186: Systems Analysis and Design

Research on Events Planning - Organization Structure, Operations Overview (group work)

BA 141: Corporate Finance I

1. Research on Annual Reports in the Philippine Banking Industry then make a comparative analysis of 2 banks. (group work)

2. Read about Ratio Analysis.

BA 101: Intro. to Business Management

Read Case 2: Armour Garments Company

BA 115: Managerial Accounting

1. Do assignments.

2. Read Chapter 4 (26 pages)

BA 182: Quantitative Methods in Business II

Group Exercise 1 (Decision Theory)

BA 151: Human Behavior in Organizations

Read Chapters 18, 19, 20 (48 pages)

*** i'm sooooo broke.

*** i miss my mom.

*** i didn't know that Cardinal Sin died until it was told in BA 151.

*** i haven't found an appropriate article for our research yet.

*** i'm craving for piaya

*** i have no class tomorrow...

*** ...pero tambak naman ang readings ko!

2005-06-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

Ditto!

slacking at 2am, i suddenly wanna have the same penchant for poetry as what pablo neruda had. for the very, very first time, i found myself falling in love with an uncheezy love poem. this is so malufet! i swear it's not the so elementary-ish lovey dovey poems. this one's worth the read!

Sonnet 17 by Pablo Neruda

"I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz

or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:

I love you as certain dark things are loved,

secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries

hidden within itself the light of those flowers,

and thanks to your love, darkly in my body

lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,

I love you simply, without problems or pride:

I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,

so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,

so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close."

ditz mode. i want to believe that this is almost-but-not-quite soooooo me. hahaha. i guess i'll forever be the hopeless romantic freak i am. i'm kind of inspired to get an english 12 class next sem tuloy. i still have one AH GE subject! wala lang, i suddenly felt like i can actually bear the burdens of scrutinizing and digesting every bit of world literature. haha. yikes. but i know myself more than anyone does. my drive of pursuing a pure reading-and-analysis subject will forever be just an inspiration.

i'm supposed to read my finance, managerial accounting, and HBO books now, but here i am, blogging! glecy, sabi na nga ba mahihirapan akong gawin ang resolution ko! harharhar. i hate the fact that UP Diliman ruins my skin. swear! there are times that i only get 2 hours of sleep. haay. how i wish i was gifted with stress-surviving hormones! sometimes i want to live in a campus dorm na lang so i could save my travel time. but i don't wanna give up the conveniences i have at home. i won't and never ever will!

cramming is my life. but i am aware that slacking off shouldn't be a pretext in my journey of "experiencing life." so there, i'll try not to cram even just for this semester!

nothing extraordinary happened today. i've spent my day living as quintessential as the others were. i hit the mic for three hours! haha. as in ako lang yung kumakanta. extra lang si papa minsan. that's how we bond. we share the same passion for music. i wouldn't have stopped abusing the microphone if i didn't realize na may handaan pala at our neighbor's house. hehehe. so embarassing.

my dad asked me to buy him kitchie nadal's album. hahaha. kewlness. recently, a day didn't pass without him telling me how he really likes kitchie's music. "ang galing talaga niyang si kitchie nadal, may sariling style. unique ang boses. blah, blah, blah." actually, he mistook her as a foreign singer. he even asked me to sing 'bulong' kanina. as if naman there's a kitchie nadal song in the songlist eh recently lang nag bloom si kitchie! hahaha. haay, si papa talaga.

a father's day greeting to the one and only man of my life! i love you, papa!

2005-06-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

Random Whines

sheeeeeeezz. wala akong makwento. wala lang. this is pure crap. i'm blogging it nonetheless. read on, if you wish.

the sem has just barely started but it feels like we're already in the middle of it. nakakaiyak lahat ng books namin, add the readings and handouts to that. good thing we don't have wednesday classes, at least we can also rest in the middle of the week. oh well... technically, it's a rest day. but practically, it still isn't.

one of my semestral resolutions or whatever you may wanna call it is to use the internet for at most thrice a week. i have to limit my web sessions since once i start using it, i usually have a hard time stopping my access.

i'm so magastos these days. i can't save even a single peso from my allowance. i'm having a hard time containing my impulse to buy things which i don't really need at the moment. ang dami kong nakikitang sale. hehehe. i'm so takaw pa. i buy anything i crave everytime i go home. this should stop. i feel like i'm gaining weight again. tommyyyyyyy! i thought you're going to be my dietician! hehehe. i'm back to my nescafe ice nights. i prefer it more than hot coffee. nothing beats its comfort when i'm being saturated with loads of readings.

the weather is sooo shitty. june is way, way hotter than summer. what's worse, bigla na lang uulan when you least expect it.

i have a 7am-class every tuesdays and fridays. i've already been late twice though the sem has just started. ang hirap gumising, swear! i'm not used to it na. my only consolation is seeing dr. roman early in the morning and witnessing her strengths as a professor. i so admire her. hehehe. she's like prof. monsod. o baka naman na sstarstruck lang talaga ako. hehe. but she's really good.

i had my reaffirmation in UP CE. i went to Papemelroti, Blue Magic, and Parker awhile ago for the EA stuff. inquiries lang. no deals yet. i'm thinking of joining UP ABAM or UP AIESEC. if my friends are going to apply, then i would, too.

i'm thinking of pursuing finance as a major. i'm considering marketing, too. unfortunately, i feel that i won't do justice if i'll pursue productions and operations as a career track. hahaha. i'm not much a fan of linear programming, sensitivity analysis, critical path method, and the like.

i've come to a realization that vacation is really over. pero feeling ko, may vacation-lag pa rin ako. hehehe.

2005-06-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

Withheld Weariness

one acad week down, a couple of hectic ones to go. i really feel the need to keep away from my cramming tendencies. nay, better drop it since i have to wake up to the fact that all units i've enrolled for are major ones. i'm halfway through my course! yay! it was as if two years were merged into one. two more years to go and i'm off... welcome corporate world! right on, dude!

i already met my professors. i believe they're all embodiments of excellence. it just occurred to me that almost all of them require us to read in advance. shux! and most of them conduct recitations every meeting. brilliant! on a positive note, i feel so privileged of having the first lady UP President as a professor this sem. she emits an aura of authority yet she knows whenever humor calls. i like her style of teaching though it's too early to tell. conversely, i'm also dreading one of my classes. i've heard feedbacks regarding our hbo prof. it's either you come prepared every session or you prepare yourself to be embarassed. yikes. she was fine during the first week, anyway. pressure. pressure. pressure. gotta learn to deal with it better. until tuesday, i'm withholding my weariness.

one great sem coming up! that's sarcasm, deary...

2005-06-08T23:19:00.000+08:00

Batang Promil

one of the reports featured in 24 oras for today was about separation anxiety. i didn't know what it was. i thought it was all about the jitters that the not-so-fortunate children undergo when their parents separate. i was wrong pala. i found out that this separation anxiety thing is all about children who do not want to be left in the classroom by their parents during their very first day of school. i won't bore you by blogging with regard to the technicalities of separation anxiety. i'm not that familiar about it either. i'll just make kwento about how i personally went through this sorta-kinda-lyka-parang-medyo-may-pagka separation anxiety thing.

i was three years old when i started going to school. (side kwento: ngayon ko lang na-realize na i've spent 13 years of enduring long hours of travel time via school to house and vice-versa during my angelicum college days. it took 1 1/2 hours of travelling one way. so, kapag back-and-forth, 3 hours yun! imagine, 15 hours in a week of unproductive time spent preparatory to doing productive ones! 15 hours in a week multiplied to 13 years... brilliant! good thing we didn't have to bear the burdens of commuting everyday!) my lola was the one who took me to school and fetched me come dismissal time. disclaimer: she wasn't the one driving ha! hehe.

i admit i am a lola's girl. she was the one who took care of me and my sister when we were young 'coz our parents were in abroad back then. when i was about to start going to school, she really had a hard time convincing me why i should. i cried a lot everytime she went out of my classroom. ayoko talaga magpa-iwan. as in i did resort to literally clinging on her hands, legs, waist, etc. everytime she walked out. due to my insistent demand of not being away from my lola, my teacher bargained with me. she let my lola stay in the room on the condition that i won't be crying too loud and interrupting her lessons. what a low-lifer i had been! plus, i was the only one who brought bottled milk or Sustagen chocolate for recess time. hahaha. FYI, my then pre-school teacher is now a member of the team principal! o 'di ba! during my hs graduation, i remember her saying to me, "kathlyn, you were such a cry baby before. now, you're graduating na! time really slips so fast." i was so embarassed. naaalala pa pala niya 'yun! my lola spent a week in my class listening to number countings and nursery rhymes - just for a week! everytime she remembers it, she'd say to me, "bumalik ako ng nursery for a week para lang sa 'yo." and then we'd laugh.

wonderin' what made me shut my mouth from crying? it's none other than a so-large can of Birch Tree! weeks before the start of classes, i was bugging my lola to buy Birch Tree instead of Promil for my milk. i was so aliw with the commercial of the gutierrez twins. they were the endorsers of Birch Tree during that time. ewan ko ba, feeling ko kasi before, if i'd stop using Promil, it would signify na malaki na ako. it's really funny how children tend to think innocently 'di ba. but after i consumed my first can of Birch Tree, they went back to buying Promil. i was deceived! Promil Kid ako. hindi nga lang gifted! lol.

2005-06-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

i just wanna rant...

i feel like i'm treading the path of contentment these days. a number of times have i caught myself smiling for no apparent reason at all. but i'm not gonna be blogging about my bliss now... i'd rather keep the details for myself.

my junior year has officially started today. but i'm not gonna be talking about it either. haha. while i was riding a jeepney in UP kanina, i was unfortunately seated near a girl who was hardly trying to use her conyo lingo while she was talking to the driver. it's not that i'm underestimating the ability of the driver to understand the taglish-ing of this pa-conyo girl. i just find her choice of conyo-lingo-ing the driver awkward 'coz it was pretty obvious that the driver was having a hard time understanding her. the passengers were also translating everything she said to the driver. moreover, she doesn't look like she has some foreign blood running through her veins for her not to know how to speak straightly in tagalog. forgive me, my abhorrence for pretentious people is utterly obvious!

a short version...

girl to mamang driver: manong, where's my change? i've given you six pesos.

mamang driver: (dedma lang)

girl to mamang driver: manong, where's my change? you should give me singkwenta

mamang driver: ano?

passengers to mamang driver: mama, yung sukli daw po na singkwenta.

mamang driver: (stops the vehicle to attend to the girl's queries.)

girl to mamang driver: manong, where's my change?

mamang driver: ha?

passengers to mamang driver: mama, yung sukli daw po. singkwenta.

mamang driver: (gives a 50-peso bill)

girl to mamang driver: no manong, i gave you six pesos. like, you should have given me fifty cents for a change. you get it?

passengers to mamang driver: mama, singkwenta centimos lang po ung sukli niya.

mamang driver: (passes 50 cents to the girl)

the girl, after having been completely satisfied receiving her FIFTY CENTS, she then talks to her friend: "naku, sayang naman ang sukli ko kung pababayaan ko lang noh. fifty cents rin yon!"

*** after all, pwede naman pala siyang hindi mag-inarte! duh.

2005-06-03T03:13:00.000+08:00

Literally, a Long Day!

my post for today is slightly incoherent. i haven't had a good sleep yet. last night, i slept at 10pm (take note: maaga na yan for me!), then i suddenly woke up at 2am. after nun, i wasn't able to sleep na. ewan ko ba. i'll be having a hard time adjusting my sleeping time na naman. start of classes na next week.

finally... after two days, i'm done with my registration process! my long hours of waiting to be enlisted in ba 115 finally paid off. kaya lang we were enlisted dun sa block ng IE students. no more slots na daw in block A. i'll be meeting new friends ulet. so happy. :D

i arrived home from UP at around 6pm. i haven't made up my mind yet if i'd go to marian faith's bday celeb. ayoko kasi mag commute ng super late na. but of course, i couldn't turn down her invitation. kaberks ko yan eh! i thought my dad wasn't going to fetch me after ng party, but he agreed naman in the end. so ayun... pag uwi ko from UP, i took a bath agad. 8pm kc ung meeting time namin. ang hirap kaya mag prepare for an hour! hehehe. super nagmadali talaga ako. we got lost pa while we were finding the alarcon residence. hehehe.

i saw my hs friends again. yung iba i haven't seen them for almost a year, i think. we had kwentuhan, asaran, laglagan, etc., etc. of course, ndi pwedeng umabsent ang magic sing. hehe. no one beats greg in mixing drinks! may nalalaman pa yan na 1-day fermentation effect. hehehe. we were the last ones to go home. around 2am na siguro yun. dapat nga we would 've stayed there pa 'til morning eh. ang saya kasi, when there were just a few of us left, pakapalan na ng face. hehe. todo kantahan na. no factor of shyness na. hehe. laglagan to the max. haaay. i suddenly missed my hs life tuloy. hehe. thanks marian! we really enjoyed it! :D

2005-05-31T23:08:00.000+08:00

The University of Pila

having spent four semesters (not taking into account the summer classes) in my school is enough for me to dread what i'll be going through later. enrollment na naman! panahon ng umaaribang pilahan and never-ending waiting for me to be enlisted in subjects then at the end of the day eh pababalikin ka lang the next day dahil closing time na. i don't know what the reason is why luck seems so distant with me, enrollment-wise.

i remember there was a time when i was so literally sick that i asked my dad to go with me despite the fact that i'm already in college to do all the pila stuff for me. that was the only time he understood why i wasn't following the order of minor subjects in my curriculum. he's so makulit kasi when it comes to our academic stuff. he transforms into this obsessive-compulsive type who wants everything in black and white. it's a good thing though since i really learned how to value my education and their efforts. believe me, he's the person you'll least want to mess up with when it comes to studies!

let's get back to my enrollment angst. i never had the chance to get all my subjects via our university's computerized registration system (crs). where can you find a school wherein in spite of the online-based system of enlistment, some students still take a minimum of three days to enroll? sa peyups lang ata yan. there was also a time that i went back and forth the crs office to our college a couple of times because they couldn't find my form 5-a. i have also experienced the 'lotto' type of enlistment - draw lots of id's then if you're lucky enough to be picked, the slot is all yours! needless to say, i was never fortunate of it. sadyang malas lang talaga siguro ako during enlistment time. i hope i won't go through the misfortunes later. i'm keeping my fingers crossed!

2005-05-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

Remnants-of-Vacation Days

ha! i figure i could actually afford not to use the internet for a week! i think i really deserve the 'wow!' i heard from a lot of people. haha. :D my summer classes are over. nothing much, i'm just enjoying my last days of summer 'coz i know i'm gonna be facing the hardships of some major subjects this coming semester, plus a dreaded prof whom i'm not gonna be naming here. hehehe. too bad i'm not yet completely block A-fied.. i still have to go through the perks of manually enlisting my management accounting subject. arrrgh.

for the past week, i did nothing but watch dvds. oh not really, i also did the cooking stuff here in our home. believe it or not, i can cook! and i'm still learning and loving it. haha. trivia: i cooked my first ever real dish when i was twelve. that was a so-sarap pinakbet. thanks to my grandma for teaching me how to cook it the ilocano way.

so there, back to my dvd-freakness. i had my alias marathon - the first two seasons, that's like 40+ episodes! get this, i was able to finish it in two-and-a-half days! haha. thanks ivan for lending me the dvds. i have to buy my own alias season 3! it was so bitin. i so detest michael vartan that i'll be watching monster-in-law just because of him. haha. plus, i also watched 10 movies, mostly foreign language films. xempre, all dvds from quiapo. hahaha. i did a lot of laughing here. weird.

to the foreign language movie freaks out there, check these out: www.foreignfilms.com and www.imdb.com

2005-05-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

RANDOM THOUGHTS...

have you ever thought of this:

what if juan tamad discovered gravity nang malaglagan siya ng bayabas? edi pride pa ng mga pinoy yon...

come to think of it... isaac newton was also bumming under an apple tree when an apple fell onto his head and then he discovered gravity...

kung ganon, eh bakit wala man lang tumawag sa kanya na 'newton tamad' or 'idle isaac' or 'lazy newton'? hehehe...

oo nga, fictional character lang si juan tamad.. pero kahit na... i'm sure that a lot of filipinos epitomize juan tamad. kaya lang kasi, the problems with filipinos most of the time are: we don't know how to create a beautiful ending, we often succumb to our weaknesses, we always depend on others, and we always come up with poor excuses to justify our immature actions.

pansinin mo na lang ang history natin. oo, i am so proud of our history. kaya lang napansin ko, bakit mas ine-elaborate sa mga history books ang death march, ang fall of bataan, at kung ano-ano pang pansamantalang pagkatalo ng pilipinas when we were being colonized. bakit hindi binibigyang pansin ang mga nagawa ng gay revolutionists? bakit sobrang few lang ang nababanggit about the heroism of Tamblot and Bangkaw? their homosexuality is not an excuse for their heroic actions to be eradicated in our history. meron naman tinatawag na gay nationalism 'di ba?

one more thing, bakit pa ba natin pinagtatalunan kung kelan ba isinulat ni Rizal ang 'Mi Ultimo Adios'. it's funny kasi, would it do our country anything good kung mapatunayan na december 26 at hindi december 29 isinulat ni Rizal ang kanyang huling poem? tataas ba ang GDP and GNP at magkakaroon ba ng price rollback dahil dito? hindi naman 'di ba?

haynako.. if only the filipinos gave one-tenth, or even one-hundredth of the attention they gave on the joey-kris issue to alleviating poverty in our country, edi sana millions of filipinos were able to be catalysts of change.

eto pa, naisip mo rin ba kung bakit up to now eh there are still debates regarding Rizal's being a national hero? bakit ba pinagtatalunan natin kung si Rizal o si Bonifacio ba ang dapat na maging national hero eh samantalang si Del Pilar naman daw talaga ang nanalo nung nagkaroon ng election for a national hero. he was disqualified daw kasi he didn't have a dramatic death. unlike Rizal who was killed by a firing squad, si Del Pilar daw eh nagkasakit at naghirap at nakitira sa kung kani-kaninong kaibigan.

haaay.. kelan kaya aasenso ang pilipinas... pano ba tayo aasenso kung lagi na lang mga ibang lahi lang ang makikinabang sa galing ng pilipino? i have hope in our country. i love my country for it has not forsaken me. i believe in my countrymen much as i believe in myself. hindi ako nagsasalita ng tapos. i'm not in the position to predict what's gonna happen. if in the future i find myself working in a foreign land, i'll forever be sure that i'll go back to my homeland and pay it forward to my countrymen!

2005-05-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

A Paradise Within an Inferno

watching movies has been one of the reasons why i've been able to survive a couple of torturous semesters a common peyup-ian undergoes. it's a way for me to release my accumulated stress from staying up too late at night doing papers, reviewing for exams, and preparing for recitations. bad thing is, it ruins my financial budgeting. haha.

i have a penchant for watching films - foreign language and art ones, most especially! i've been advocating original dvd's and vcd's for quite a long time, until i discovered a paradise within the work-your-way-to-get-through streets of quiapo, manila. too late discovery, huh?! don't get me misunderstood. i'm not promoting piracy for chrissake! it's just that i got so tired of waiting and being told false hopes by sales ladies of astro vision, odyssey, and some video stores; that tomorrow or the next week, they'll have available copies of 'cinema paradiso', 'hable con ella', 'il postino', 'amores perros', and a whole lot of foreign language stuff!

i have fellow movie-freak friends who frequent 'dbd, dbd' stores in quiapo for a couple of years now. they've been telling me how extraordinary and rare the selections are, yet it was just very recently that i've been convinced to go there and see for myself! time to settle for bootleg copies.

being the good, or should i say, naive girl i am, i told my dad last night that i was going to quiapo with my friends. tell you what, just for him to hear where i was going to almost ended my much awaited adventure! "kat, magulo doon. i'm telling you, huwag ka ng pumunta doon!" of course, i had to work my charm out. lol. i had to convince him that i was going there with two of my guy kabarkadas so he has nothing to worry about. a lot of convincing prowess, a couple of questions answered... then i won! haha.

come quiapo. i was briefed by my friends with the usual stuff: don't bring your phone, walk fastly, don't open your bag a lot, blah blah blah. i sought for the vendor's help everytime i couldn't see the film i was looking for. my friend just laughed at me and said, "kat, huwag ka nang tanong ng tanong. hindi nila alam yan. ikaw na lang maghanap makikita mo rin yan." forgive me, i have always been an advocate of the "ang nagtatanong ay nagmumukhang tanga ngunit ang hindi nagtatanong ay nananatiling tanga." cliche. enough. i gave up asking without being replied sensibly. i had to work my way out scrutinizing through the racks of superb selections. after a couple of minutes of ceaselessly walking and going through different stores, i ended up buying six dvd's.

i wonder why even if we have institutions tasked to abolish piracy, its rampancy seems to be permanently incorporated in our system. i wonder why no vrb representative ever raided these 'dbd' stores. oh, i shouldn't have wondered! as long as there'll be powerful people protecting this illegal business, it will forever be widespread in our society. and people, you shouldn't put all the blame on consumers. (cge kat, try rationalizing your actions. hahaha). as rational beings, consumers will always prefer more to less, practical to expensive, and even quantity to quality sometimes. without cutting the decaying roots of a system, its branches will always disintegrate. logic lang yan pare, kung walang apoy, walang usok!

2005-04-28T00:50:00.000+08:00

MAROULIS-ian RANTS

wtf... constantine's out! pretty shocking.... i really, really didn't expect it. i just can't fathom how on earth could he be voted off! that freakin' scott savol must have been the one sent home! i was waiting for like three weeks for the people to end his am idol journey... he must have gone home before nadia, anwar, and constantine did! what more, i even lost my bet with my sis. i was pretty much confident that constantine will reach top three.. i was rooting for bo, vonzell, and constantine to be on top. arrgh.. forgive my cheese.. but am idol won't be the same again.. well... for me at least! i won't be looking forward to it like i did before.. haha.. cheesy.. but true!

sana may wild card ulit!

2005-04-27T20:40:00.000+08:00

TOOTHACHE in SOCIETY

I felt the electricity shoot up from the nerves of my tooth to my brain, a flag of warning that something's wrong with my teeth and gums. For the past few days, I could not think straight, nor could I enjoy my food, nor could I open my mouth to gabble. I just felt the aching pain! My sister even had the audacity to tell me that it would do me good to shut up once in a while! She even said that she could hear and enjoy the good music of silence! duh.

Amidst my pain and bout of self-pity, I remembered that I haven't thought of an article yet to be submitted, well, in the near future. I felt that I literally squeezed my brain only to have something to go on with, but to no avail. I imagined my muse went on strike, holding a banner saying I must leave her alone. I could not think. I only felt the pain.

Since I have already turned my brain inside out, I thought, "Why not make something productive out of the dire situation I am in? Why not compare my aching tooth with the aching society that we have today?" Why not? Hilarious! But at least that's something rather than be stuck with nothing at all.

I heard somewhere that pain is the mouthpiece of God in a deaf world.

Let's get back to the really aching tooth. It's simple. If a tooth really aches, it means something is wrong. One becomes affected and will deviate from the routine he does. He cannot function efficiently. Since he knows that the pain is concentrated on a certain area, his focus will only be on that area. Other areas of his body will be somewhat neglected. Ironically, a tooth, smaller than a fingernail, has the uncanny ability to affect the entire body.

So, in our society, who is the tooth? Who are the tartar, plaque, cavity, and black hole that cause the tooth to ache?

It would be safe to say that the 'tooth' is the public officer who gets elected or appointed into position. Yes, he could be the tooth. One might say that if the aching tooth is the basic unit that comprises the mouth, then, the public officer could also be the basic unit of bureaucratic disintegration. But, I'd like to play the devil's advocate in this matter. If the tooth is the public officer, then, what role does the ordinary people play in this matter? If that 'public officer-tooth' aches and is rendered rotten, then, what role do we play in it? It is easier to put the blame on someone else rather than take part in the process of disintegration or degeneration we are now in. I say that the tooth is the Filipino, may he be a public officer or one of the common folk; may he be rich or poor. We are the teeth. If a public officer is rendered rotten and useless, then, one of us is rendered rotten and useless. A person has the choice if he would be rotten and useless, or healthy and strong.

Now, who are the tartar, plaque, cavity, and black hole? Not who, but what. There are factors, practices, and traditions that contribute to the degeneration of a tooth. These are the simple and innocent-like things that we tend to overlook, simple things we inculcate into our system that turns us into people who justify the wrong in the name of what is right. Cheating is an example of this. Shoot, it is harmless if taken in a small picture. However, if magnified, a person who has 'harmlessly' practiced thsi constantly will eventually 'harmlessly' cheat in bigger things. Ending: bribery, bigamy, polygamy, electioneering, vote buying, and corruption, to name a few.

The gums are the government. It is appointed with the utmost duty to hold the teeth together, to hold the people together. But it could not do this if the individual tooth is set on being rotten and useless. In this sense, the government will be holding a set of disunited teeth. Thus, it cannot perform its task. It could be the people behind the government who are fallible. They have the choice to be affected with the pressures of local and foreign dictates, as well as personal ones. They have critical decisions to make that would affect the entire nation. Excessive dependency and use of mouthwash, dental floss, and whitening gel may harm the gums due to artificial chemicals. Likewise, excessive dependency and patronage of local and foreign dictates may harm the government, to the point of paralyzing the system that it cannot function effectively and efficiently without taking into consideration their dictates. Everything taken in moderation is good. Everything taken in excess is bad and will hurt. The government's decisions and actions must always be for the people and must always benefit the people - the general welfare.

The face is the country, our society, and our nation. If the mouth cannot function efficiently, then, it affects the entire face, the entire country. In the end, the people are the ones who bear the burden. The country will then be thrown into a state of instability. The simple truth is, it is the people who are the country's first and foremost wealth. This is especially true for third world countries like us whose greatest export is human resource.

The body is the world. We have international relations. We could not just feign ignorance that what we do does not affect the entire world. A tooth, smaller than a fingernail, has the uncanny ability to affect the entire body. A person, who cannot even be seen in a map, has the uncanny ability to affect the entire world.

Everything starts from little roles. Every new beginning starts from little changes. Each person has his own role to fulfill. Every person has his duty to work towards a prosperous society. Each person has the duty to make the world, not better, but the best place to live in.

It is the hand that will hold the toothbrush, which is the instrument that will clean the teeth. We, the teeth, still answer to a Higher Being, the Hand, who will cleanse and purify us.

It is true; pain is the mouthpiece of God in a deaf world. We are being cleansed and purified. We are deaf. It is the reason why we ache.

2005-04-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

SUMMER MUSINGS

it has been a week since the start of my summer classes. it's fun naman. tell you what, i finally experienced having an almost-priest-turned-marxist-and-atheist professor. it's not that i was looking forward to having one. i was just curious about how a person like him conducts his classes. haha. he's fun. plus he doesn't believe in grades. cool dba. 'coz i don't too. i mean, grades aren't really supposed to be used in gauging a person's abilities. you have to consider a lot of factors dba. however, there are times na nawiwindang tlga ako sa mga attacks niya against any religion, but mostly he attacks the catholics. i mean, he goes like "f*ck religion, f*ck blah blah..." oh well, it's his choice naman eh. and besides, freedom of expression is not suppressed in our school. pero it's my faith that matters naman dba.i won't let it shatter!

my other prof naman is a well-known activist. o dba, how's that for a summer? nakakawindang. haha. she's nice and fun too but she kinda hates business admin and econ people. oh well, it's not really the people she hates but their views. haha. kawawa naman kami. she's not in favor of globalization kc and she has angst for the people in TNCs and MNCs. but she made us secure naman na she won't be biased in giving us grades. you see, it's just a matter of choice. we are all entitled to have one and we must be able to defend it and accept the consequences it entails. too much for my summer musings. haha.

anyway, i just finished reading a book entitled 'memoirs of a geisha'. it's nice. i got to learn the geisha culture in japan before the 2nd world war. i really like reading fiction novels like this. i mean, the characters are fictional yet the plot and setting are not. it's like hitting two birds with one stone. naaaliw ka na sa kwento, you get to learn different cultures pa dba. yesterday, i bought 'the unbearable lightness of being' by milan kundera. i haven't started it yet but i'm sure i'm gonna love it. when i browsed it kc, i found it somewhat philosophical kaya i think it's interesting. next book i'm gonna buy: 'the god of small things' by arundhati roy and 'one hundred years of solitude' by i-forgot-the-name author. regaluhan nyo ko ng perennial classics na books!! wahaha. i'll really appreciate it talaga! hehe. i don't like reading gushy and mushy books. and the cheesy ones too. haha. no offense meant.

too bad i'm not going to spend my vacation in cebu this summer. but probably i'll be spending my remnants-of-vacation-days in my uncle's place in laguna after my summer classes. one thing's for sure: this summer, i have to AT LEAST watch one movie every week with my friend. it's a good way to release stress and have clean fun. btw, ok ung movie theaters sa gateway! sobra! i thought 'finding neverland' was a good movie. i was kinda disappointed. i found it common tska boring. few parts lang ung maganda. 'sahara' was just okay. tell you what, this week i watched 'top gun' for at least five times! haha. actually, i got to watch it for the first time just last week! beat that! haha. grabe, tom cruise was really hot during his top gun days! that was approximately 20 years ago.

2005-04-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

Virgo

Million stars below

Sewn in a blanket of black foam

The night hums

Significance bestowed

A question.

A smile.

A question.

With her eyes wide open

Wondering what sensation there is

Searching.

Having found.

Searching.

Though eager, she becomes submissive

Though hesitant, she advances in passion

Her dream slowly given meaning

In a darkness so desolate

Blending.

Understanding.

Blending.

With innocence stained

And submissiveness gone

She opens her mouth

And releases ardent kisses

Intensely breathing in

What he mildly breathes out

Senses dulled

Pleasure strongly attained.

That which was hidden,

Surfaced.

That which was repressed,

Revealed.

Pleasure.

Discovered.

Now,

she floats.

2005-04-04T16:44:00.000+08:00

after four consecutive semesters of studying in UP, i finally got a grade of.... (drumrolls please) ........ three!! hahaha. btw, the subject is fundamental accounting theory and practice II. it's a dreaded subject by the BA, BAA, and BE people. although it's the least passing grade, i'm so happy pa rin!! sobrang happy. panget nga lng 'cuz panira ng GWA. but still, i still know how to count my blessings. haha. i was expecting to get something lower than three... maybe a removal grade or an eff-ing singko. but yeah, miracles do happen! if there's one thing i continually learn in UP, it would probably be not dropping any subject although your standing already sucks. believe me, i've experienced this for three consecutive semesters. it's better to fight 'til the end y'know... 'cuz if you drop, you're risking the possibility of passing. on the other hand, if you won't drop, you're also risking the possibility of failing. there may be two possible outcomes but the latter means being averse to challenges.. and that's what life is all about.. facing challenges.. a person also needs to experience life's thrills. oh geesh, enough of my thoughts... i'm just so happy that i'm not gonna be carrying my 3-kilo accounting book anymore!!! woohooo...

yeah, after we've found out our accounting grades, zel and i watched ms. congeniality 2 in gateway. we didn't plan it. we were supposed to just eat lunch together but we decided to watch also. i had a good time. it was fun. the movie was as good as the first one. yeah, zel was right. we should do it more often. we need to reward ourselves naman for our academic burdens. hahaha..

some things are just not meant to be...

ciao!

2005-03-30T18:34:00.000+08:00

i just got home from school. i had my finals in acctg. shux. it was so tiring.. imagine.. it was a 4-hr exam.. my head's still aching.. later i'll be having my induction as a member and officer of my org.. and then i'm gonna finish a lot of paper works.. arrrrghh... i haven't had a good sleep.. i still can't feel that it's already summer time... except for the weather of course..

2005-03-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

EINSTEIN'S RIDDLE

This is solvable........ I swear

1. There are 5 houses in 5 different colours. In each house lives a person with a different nationality.

2. The 5 owners drink a certain type of beverage, smoke a certain brand of cigar, and keep a certain pet.

3. No owners have the same pet, smoke the same brand of cigar or drink the same beverage.

The question is "Who owns the fish?"

Facts:

The Brit lives in the red house.

The Swede keeps dogs as pets.

The Dane drinks tea.

The green house is on the left of the white house.

The green house's owner drinks coffee.

The person who smokes Pall Mall rears birds.

The owner of the yellow house smokes Dunhill.

The man living in the center house drinks milk.

The Norwegian lives in the first house.

The man who smokes Blends lives next to the one who keeps cats.

The man who keeps the horse lives next to the man who smokes Dunhill.

The owner who smokes Bluemasters drinks beer.

The German smokes Prince.The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.

The man who smokes Blends has a neighbor who drinks water.

Einstein wrote this riddle this century. He said 98% of the world could not solve it.

It can be done! Be part of the 2% that COULD.

House

Nationality

Beverage

Cigar

Pet

You will have to print this out and use paper to work it out.

2005-03-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

oh well, i'm back blogging myself 'cuz it's required in my creative writing class... plus it's a good way to release my stress... plus i can't find anything to do... plus i'm already bored editing my myspace and friendster profiles... plus i'm also fed up uploading pics in webshots and photobucket too. haha. yeah. i'm a sucker for free web services.. nothing much. i'm so tired. i'm supposed to be studying for my accounting finals next week, but here I am, bumming again. yeah, we still have our finals week after the holy week. would you believe??? what was up with my school.. why did they agree with that sched?! it's so unfair.. torture.. i badly need to pass my accounting subject. yeah.. i sucked in my 2nd long exam 'cuz i wasn't following directions! damn.. stupid kat.. yeah, i'm still not over with it, 'cuz you know, every correct answer counts when you're talking of BA 99.2.. plus our 3rd long exam was REALLY HARD! oh well, you can't blame your prof if he's got very high standards with regard to his expertise... he's a CPA board topnotcher btw.. i'm just hoping that everything will turn out well... i hope... i really hope so... pray for me pls... i badly need your prayers.. hahaha...
yeah, my lay-out sucks now. bear with me puhleeaze... i still don't have time to change it. cguro after my exams i'm gonna change it na.. oki dokies!
and oh yeah, thanks glecy for encouraging me to log in my xanga again. it's really effective... an outlet to release your angst! haha.. good luck! dapat mag xanga na rin sila norman.. dba dba.. hahahaha
carpe diem... seize the day..
... and so BE IT!